When I think about my my past month, I think keyword for all this is “natural.” In Japanese the word is “shizen” 自然。It means not only natural expression but also nature. 自然な表現 “shizen na hyogen” would mean natural expression.

Even sweet water of a protected lake will flow eventually into open sea. Would you ask the water “why do you must go so far away, out of our reach”? No, we don’t ask the water. But we ask that from the wretched bodies of our loved ones when the hospital curtain is drawn.

Are we afraid that sea is empty or that there is something unknown living in it? That the whole body of water is actually alive and has a deeper meaning in it that must teach us a lesson so painfully.

Does the news hurt more than the empty page?

It has to be natural cycle, somehow.